The ability to love like i've never been hurt before.


This feeling of emptiness.
Seems so lonely unfamiliar and foreign.
But i'm lazy and confused.
It scares me.


Dont know what i want and am doing.
Lazy to fight.

I'm always laughing talking jumping around and always happy and smiling.
Doesnt mean there wont be times when i'll stay by myself, sad, stone, quiet and think.

In clubs, i'm always high hyper dancing laughing talking making lots of noise and drinking alot because i always lose games.
But it doesnt mean that there wont be times i dont wanna play and just sit there with a glass of mixed martell quietly.


Do i look like a toy or clown?
Even clowns have off days and toys have days when battery is low.

I dont need anyone telling me "you're no fun today" yadayadaidontcare.

All i'm saying is, it's just one of my rare days.
I cant put a smile to your face if i dont feel like smiling myself.


ST JAMES TONIGHT!!!! Ha.